The beginning of the end

First of all,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Yea, my title sounds a little bleak, but its the truth. This month is the beginning of the end. And no, I'm not talking about the Mayan calendar or whatever. I'm talking about school, and my future military life. Starting next week I'll begin my spring semester of class, which would equal me out to having (incl this semester) 3 semesters left for my associates degree. Bittersweet moment if you know what I mean, because a lot will be changing this year. School finishing, military life starting, BOTH my children in school....what a lot of changes coming... it's sort of hard to grasp, but I think I'll be ready for it when it all begins. I mean, I better be, considering I don't really have a choice, and really, I'm ok with that. I'm ok with waiting for my love to come home from basic. I'm ok with going full on with school and finishing strong. I'm ok with my kids growing up and starting preschool (I mean, I don't have much of a choice with that one now do I?)
I feel like a mess, but it seems very straight forward and organized. Does that make any sense at all? Just a lot that will be happening this year. It's crazy to think that by the end of this year all of this will be finished. 363 days left I suppose! (today's the 3rd, in case you were wondering) and I don't even know if this is a leap year or not..

So, I suppose to recap, if you're trying to keep up:

• I will be graduating with my associates by December of this year
• My boyfriend will be going into the military in either March or May (believe me, two months MAKES A DIFFERENCE)
• Whenever this may be, I may be dealing with more than just his leaving.
• both of my kids will be in school this coming August (preschool 3 year old & Kindergarten)
• I may be getting married to my boyfriend, or breaking up. We'll see. So far it's looking positive <3
• I have 2 weddings to photograph this coming fall AND photoshoots between now and then
• Not to mention I still have to take care of my two kids, work, study my butt off to be able to get to the point of graduation, and keep up with anything military to make sure ALL information is processed and kept on my part.
• AND possibly moving once he graduates from BCT & SIT. and depending on when he would decide to leave, I may have the possability to leave SOONER than the end of the year. Which, I don't know if I should or not.. A college degree is so important. If I leave before getting my associates, I may have to start all over. Credits don't transfer from state to state as easily as a DEGREE does. If anyone is following my blog, remember this fact.

Ugh, seeing everything in bullet form like this makes it seem like there's more than I thought. But, one day at a time seems to be working for me, but I want to at least enjoy my time in the moment. I may never experience all this again.

Anyway, to distract myself from my hectic life ahead of me, I decided to have a photoshoot on christmas eve. Weird, I know, but my family doesn't really do much for christmas eve, so I saw no harm in it. It was definitely a good time!  So, for you all, here's a few pictures::